I know the road is long from the ground of glory…
Dear God,
I know we haven’t spoken in a while. In fact, I’ve all but avoided you for the longest time. I don’t know why, Father. I really don’t. I used to be there. I used to be at that point in my life where I felt that every breath I took was for you. I want to be involved in the campus ministries here, and I want more than anything to be able to commit to something like that. But for the life of me, I can’t bring myself to doing it. I know you exist. To me, I can’t find anything that says you don’t. The problem I’m having, God, is believing your word. For some reason, I just can’t grasp it anymore. I used to hold to your word as my lifeline in this world. Now I can’t even keep myself believing in it. I don’t know where to go from here. Everything is going so great, and I owe it to you. But, how can I believe in you if I can’t believe what you say? I have a lot of growing to do…..
Thank you for putting people in my life to help me, and I hope that I can figure this all out soon.
Amen.
